"VIS A VIS" THE UNSEEN PARTS
B'Elanna's  POV
Setting: The scenes that should have followed `Tom's' exit from B'Elanna, 
in the transporter room, and the events that would have filled up her next 
twenty-four hours. 
Disclaimers:   This isn't the first fanfic I've written but it is the first that I 
actually decided to post.  Please give me feedback!  If I get some positive 
feedback, I might have enough self-confidence to post some of the others 
I've written.  Yeah yeah, Paramount owns all this crap and I have no life. 
Just because:  Okay so I just watched this ep for the first time on 
Wednesday, I've kind of had this idea in my mind since I read Mike's 
spoiler.  
Dedicated to Tommy who couldn't watch with me because he had to go to 
work early the next morning.
Give me feedback PLS:)
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	I couldn't move.  He just walked out.  No other words, he just walked 
out of the transporter room. I felt the tears corner up into my eyes, but I 
quickly blinked them away.  There was no way in hell I was going to cry 
over this.  I had been hurt like this before, but for some reason it had never 
hurt this much. `He never said anything that mean to me before.'  The only 
thought, among many that I was thinking, was the one that kept returning to 
my mind. `I should have known.  Why did I ever think that he could love 
me?  This is all my fault. All I do is work, not to surprising that he didn't 
want to be with me anymore.'  I thought about what I had just said.  What 
the hell was I talking about?  He was the one who had been canceling our 
dates for the past week and a half, not me.  I stood there for what seemed 
like an eternity.  It was only when Vorik called me over the comm. system 
that I was dragged out of my thoughts about the events that had just 
proceeded.
	"Lieutenant Torres?  Are you going to be returning to Engineering 
any time soon?"  His annoying voice called to me, and I realized that there 
was no way that I could go back to work with all these things on my mind.  I 
wanted to cry, not think. Mustering up all the self-confidence I could put 
into my voice, I answered him.
	"No Vorik, I umm. I don't feel well.  You're in charge for the rest of 
the day."
	"Understood, Vorik out."  The room became silent once again. 
	After I finally had regained control of my legs, and was able to walk 
out of the door, I asked the computer where Tom was and it responded that 
he was now at his post on the bridge.  I walked down the corridor to the 
turbolift.  I passed many crewmen, and they proceeded with their formalities 
until they saw my face.  The tears that I had decided I wouldn't cry were 
beginning to leave my eyes and run down my cheeks. 	
	As I finally got to the lift and the door separated, the smiling face of 
Harry Kim greeted me.  One of the last people I wanted to see.  
	"B'Elanna what happened?" His sweet face filled with genuine 
sympathy, as he took my hand into his.  I immediately tried to banish the 
tears that were now streaming down my face and gathering in a small pile on 
my chin. 
	"Nothing. nothing Harry."  I knew he wouldn't buy it.
	"B'Elanna I have known you for to damn long, to know that you do 
not cry for no reason."  His voice was soft and strong at the same time.  
Before I could get a word in edge wise, he called to the computer.  
"Computer, halt turbolift."  He looked at me and I knew that I would tell 
him.
	"Tom called me to the transporter room, and we had a huge argument, 
and he told me that he didn't know what he ever saw in me."  All of my 
words came out in a long blurred sentence.  I didn't know what else to tell 
him, or another way to say it.   I stopped myself from looking up at him; my 
head had fallen sometime while I was spewing forth. 
	"Oh B'Elanna. I don't know what to tell you.  He has been acting 
odd lately.   Maybe you both just need to cool off."  It sounded more like a 
statement than a question to me.  Cool off? We had hardly seen each other 
for the past week and we needed to cool off?
	"Computer, deck six."  The lift hummed and moved quickly as it went 
where  I told it. "I took the rest of the day off, and now I'm just going to go 
to my quarters."  As much as I hated to admit it, talking to Harry about it had 
actually made me feel a bit better.  It was a hell of a lot better than keeping 
all of that balled up inside me.   I didn't dare tell him that though.  I did, 
however, tell him no to tell anyone about it, and he agreed. I got off the lift 
and walked quickly to my quarters.
	The door slid back into it's shut position behind me, and I collapsed 
onto my bed.  The tears that had continually been falling off of my face in 
short bursts, now gushed out as I sobbed.  I hate crying.  I hadn't done it 
since my father had left. That had been about twenty-two years ago.  Funny 
huh?  Once again a man who had more or less left me, had made me cry. I 
had been left by other men, but I guess I realized as I sobbed, that the one I 
had cried for, and the one I was doing so for right now, were the only ones 
that I truly cared about.. loved. 
	Slowly, but surely, I regained all of my lost composure, and walked 
around my quarters looking at all of the gifts that tom had given me:   the 
silk robe from the Mari homeworld, the picture of the two of us, at one of 
Neelix's famous Luaus', and the gold chain that he had given me after the 
incidents with the Hirogen.  They all went so much to me.  I found myself 
wondering how much they went to him. with those thoughts in my head, I 
laid down on my couch and drifted into a nightmare ridden sleep.
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	When I finally awoke, it was fifteen hours later. Lots had happened 
while I had slept.  Upon arriving in Engineering, I had discovered that it was 
not Tom who had said those awful things to me.  It was Seth.  I heard the 
whole-convoluted story, and I wasn't surprised when he, quicker, than 
expected, arrived in Engineering, and whisked me off into the holodeck.
	True.  I heard the words that he had spoken in the holodeck, but it was 
the kiss that told me that everything was back to normal.

THE END