Disclaimer:The characters in this story are owned lock, stock and barrel by Paramount. I am meerly using them for my own gratification and intend to have them back where they belong before any real harm is done.Dedication: This story is dedicated to my friends Margaret and Vicky who listened to me waffle on about it. To Lindsey my proof reader and very good friend (thanks a bunch, I owe you one). To my Mum for her never ending patience, and also to Shania Twain who's song "What made you say that" was the insperation behind it.Notes:This is my first attempt at fan fiction and I would be very grateful for any feedback (good, bad or indifferent) as I will never get any better if nobody lets me know what I'm doing wrong :-). Send Feedback to Bowzy@aol.com Rating:This story contains SEX and so I have given it an NC17 rating to fall in line with our American cousins. Please if you are under the age of 18 or are offended by this type of material stop reading now!!. Summery: This story takes place a few hours after the events in "Day of Honour". B'Elanna is upset with herself  for telling Tom how she feels and is trying to sort things out in her own mind when he comes to visit. Will they be able to deal with things together?. "What Made You Say That"                                                                         By Bowzy.B'Elanna sat in her quarters thinking about the last twelve hours. She found it difficult to believe that in that time she had argued with Chakotay, had a fight with a  Klingon warrior, dumped the warp core and almost died free floating in space with Tom Paris. As much as all that preyed on her mind it was what she had said to Tom, when she thought she was going to die, that weighed on her the  most."Why did I let him know that I loved him?" she questioned  the empty room, sinking further back into the sofa.*Because you wanted and needed to* replied the little voice inside her head which B'Elanna heard often in times of great emotional turmoil.Rising from the sofa she shook her head, "No it was too soon, and the only reason I told him was because I was afraid." she growled pacing the room.*Do you really believe that or are you afraid to admit that you might just have done the right thing?" the voice persisted forcing her to stop mid stride." How would you know?. This isn't you're life we're dealing with!!" she snapped.The voice didn't answer, forcing B'Elanna to actually think about what she had just said. She shook her head and sat back down grimacing at her own stupidity. What was the point of arguing , even with herself,  when she knew there was no way she could change what had happened?. She couldn't try to take it back, Tom wouldn't let her and then he would be even more stubborn and piggish than usual. B'Elanna lay back against the plush cushions and covered her eyes with her hands, as if maybe blocking out her vision might also block out her problems. She was just starting to relax when the door chime rang out."Go away.""No, B'Elanna. We need to talk." It was Tom."Tom I said go away. I'm not in the mood to see anyone right now," she said loud enough for him to hear, then softly "especially you.""C'mon B'Elanna just open the door.  You know if you don't I'll just stand out here all night and annoy you.""Don't even think about it Tom, I'll call security."Tom Paris leaned in toward the door resting his head against it." Please B'Elanna don't do this, we need to talk. I need to see you." his voice held a note of pleading that pulled at her.She rose from her seat and walked to the door keying in her access code. The door slid back revealing Tom. He was dressed in a pair of light blue jeans and a blue shirt which was left open at the collar. B'Elanna felt her stomach lurch and her pulse quicken.*Why does he have to be so damn handsome?* she thought. She gave herself a mental shake and blushed lightly when he noticed that she was staring."What do you want Tom? It's late and I was just going to bed.""I can see that." Tom grinned at her.B'Elanna looked down at herself and remembered that she was in her nightclothes. She had taken a long bath and changed into them after she had been released from sickbay. She stiffened and pulled her robe tighter."Like I said, what do you want?"she asked a slight edge to her voice."Can't I come in? I need to talk to you and I can't do it while I'm standing in the corridor." He watched her think about it, the war raging within her evident on her face. Finally she came to a decision and moved aside to let him enter."How are you feeling now? I know my legs are still a bit wobbly after our sojourn in space." he said lightly, easing himself into a chair."I'm okay I suppose, I just don't want to have to do it again in a hurry."Tom saw his chance to bring up what he was there for."What the space walk or what you said?"he asked looking her directly in the eye.B'Elanna quickly looked away and walked over to the window. Her mind was reeling. She knew which ever way she answered this question would effect them for the rest of their lives. She sighed and looked out at the stars trying to get her thoughts and feelings into some kind of order. She heard a rustle as  Tom came up behind her and rested his chin on her  shoulder."They look  much different from the outside. I think I prefer seeing them from in here." His breath was warm on her neck and ear causing her already confused emotions to tumble further out of control. "You didn't answer my question," he said moving forward against her back his mouth nuzzling her neck.She gasped slightly and tried to move away from him, but his arms came around her waist and held her there."Tom don't, I can't take this right now. I don't know what I want." she whispered trying not to concentrate on how he was making her feel.He took his lips from her neck and turned her to face him.*Does she know how beautiful she is?* he thought. He looked deep into her chocolate eyes, then up to the lines on her lightly risen forehead and down to her deliciously full and kissable lips. The lips that he knew if he ever started to kiss he would never be able to stop again. First things were first though and he had to know she wanted this as much as he did. Tom released his grip from B'Elanna's waist and moved away from her. Reaching out his hand he took hers and led them to the couch where he sat her down so as he could face her , her hand still in his."B'Elanna I know this is hard for you." he began looking down at their joined hands "Probably the only reason you told me what you did was because you thought you were going to die, and that there would be no repercussions in you telling me. But you see that doesn't matter to me. What does matter is that I know and that I feel the same way about you."He lifted his head to look at her face again and saw tears spilling from her large dark eyes."Tom," she croaked her voice choked with emotion "I don't know if I'm ready for this. I've never really been in love before and it's all very new to me. After my father left when I was young I never really had any love in my life so I grew up bitter and angry. I was convinced I would never be able to love another person again, but when I thought I was going to die, there was something inside me that told me that I had to tell you the truth." She looked into his eyes hoping that she was making sense and that he would understand her fears."But now we're both still alive, I keep feeling as if it was too soon and that I only said it because I didn't think I would ever see you again."He began to speak but she silenced him with her fingers against his lips."No, listen to me Tom. I know you say that it doesn't matter, that it was because of the situation  I told you that I was in love with you, but it does matter to me. I can't stop myself  from asking would there have been a time that I would have told you without there having been some catalyst?. The thing is I can't answer that." She let her fingers fall from his mouth to her lap.Tom let his head fall back taking stock of what she had just said. Maybe she was right. Maybe without this catalyst she would never have had the courage to tell him, but dammit he was in love with her and he had been from about the first time he saw her, and he wasn't about to give up the fight that easily. He lifted his hand to her face wiping away her tears, letting his palm rest softly against her cheek."B'Elanna do you have any idea how my heart felt when you said those words to me?" he looked at her so solemnly and lovingly that she dropped her eyes from his."No, look at me I want to be able to look in your eyes when I say this."She lifted her eyes to meet his once again."Well do you have any idea?" She shook her head slightly and he smiled at her."I thought that I was going to burst.You can't imagine just how long I've wanted to hear you say something like that to me, and believe me it's a long time, even before the Ponn Farr incident."he chuckled lightly."Although I don't ever think you'll  know just how hard it was for me trying not to make love to you, when that was all I ever seemed to dream about doing. I knew even then that I would have to wait for you, perhaps forever, but it didn't matter because I loved you. I knew you were worth waiting for. I still love you and now I know you feel the same. But if your not ready, if you still need more time I can wait as long as it takes."More tears spilled from B'Elanna's eyes and coursed down her cheeks. Her thoughts and emotions were in a complete jumble and her heart hammered so fast she was sure it would come clean out of her chest at any moment.*Why? Why did this man love her so much that he was willing to wait even after all this time?* she thought as she gazed at him through her tears.Tom let go of her hand and got up and went into her bathroom, when he came back out he carried some tissues and handed them to her to dry her eyes. He watched her wipe the moisture from her face and gave her a moment to compose herself before bending down to kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear."Now that you know how I feel, I'll give you all the time and space that you need to make your decision." He straightened up and looked at her once more before heading towards the door.B'Elanna's mind raced and after a beat she came to a decision, she stood up from the sofa and called to him."Tom don't go!!"He stopped mid stride turning to face her. His face was flushed and his blue eyes sparkled as if with a life of there own. He watched the play of emotions on her face waiting and hoping for the answer he so desperately wanted to hear."Please don't leave me Tom, I don't ever want you to leave me again." Her voice held a note of desperation and seeing his nod she moved forward into his embrace. He held her tightly kissing the top of her head and murmering to her that this was where he would be for the rest of his life. Tom tightened his grip on her as if in fear that if he let her go he would never be able to find her  again. B'Elanna sensed his thoughts and she too held him closer giving him the reasurance that this was right and that he would not lose her. They held each other that way for what seemed to be an eternity.Finally Tom pushed her away from his body enough to see her face. He brought his hand up to her cheek and she leaned her face into it, tilting her head slightly so as to be able to look into his eyes. The silence in the room was finally broken when Tom whispered to her "I love you B'Elanna Torres and I wan't to make love to you, will you let me?."B'Elanna smiled gently at him and lifted her face to his and placed a kiss on his lips "I would love for you to make love to me." No more words were necesary as Tom's mouth claimed hers in a passionate breath stealing kiss before she pulled away from him and motioned that he should follow her to the bedroom. He walked slowly toward her, his hands reached over to her shoulders, gently pulling her body into his. They began to kiss, slowly and gently at first. With a sweep of his tongue he took her entire mouth in his, resting his tongue at the entrance to her open mouth, moving it only when he felt her tongue touch his. Their bodies pressed together, moving against each other, B'Elanna could not stop herself from moaning. Tom pushed her lightly so that she sat down, one hand caressing a breast with increasing firmness as he leaned into her until they were lying along side of each other. Slipping off her robe and then putting his hand beneath her nightshirt he brushed her erect nipple with the side of his hand, running his fingers around the aureole. She gasped suddenly and arched herself into his hand. He pulled  her nightshirt over her head and nuzzled his head between her breasts and then took as much of one into his mouth as he could. Tom nibbled and sucked at B'Elanna's breasts until she moaned feeling some direct connection to her clitoris that pulsed in rythm to the firm pressure of his tongue.Tom delighted in her vocalisations and pulled back to look at her exquisite body. She was slim but well rounded in the places a woman should be and to Tom she was by far the most beautiful sight he had ever seen. Her eyes glowed with barely restrained passion and her lips were bruised and swollen from their passionate kisses. He knew without a shadow of a doubt that this was where he wanted to be for the rest of his life, giving and receiving pleasure from this woman who had declaired her love for him. Tom bent his head to her kissing her hard, letting her know with that one action just how much he wanted her. B'Elanna responded by growling deep in her throat and pulled him down to lie on top of her again.Their bodies pressed up hard against each other moving their hips in sync. She sighed to feel his hardness through his clothes. Delighted by his arousal and the power of their desire, she suddenly reached over to stroke the outline of his erection through his jeans. Tom moaned pushing against her hand."Stand up, take your clothes off," she said rubbing him through the thick material. As he unbuttoned his shirt, she unbuckled his belt and unzipped his fly. Then his hands met hers, cupping it and pressing it against him through his clothes for a moment before finally shedding his jeans. B'Elanna sat up on the bed savouring the sight of his body, naked now except for his shorts. She looked at his erection, tight up against the white material, seeing a few drops of pre-ejaculate against the shorts. Lifting them over his penis in order to pull them off, she smiled noticing a drop quivering on it's tip. Following her gaze, he smiled waggling his eyebrows. "I'm very ready," he said running his tongue over suddenly too dry lips. Touching him lightly and smiling broadly, B'Elanna moved forward "So I see," she whispered kissing him gently behind his ear.B'Elanna pulled him onto the bed to join her, she began to kiss him again, taking his lower lip between hers she sucked on it hard, then bit it sharply drawing blood. She ran her tongue over it from side to side tasting the metalic red liquid. She opened her mouth to cover his lips fully and pushed her tongue roughly inside his mouth, drawing a moan of pleasure from Tom. Their tongues found each other and twisted around until one of them would change the motion.She pushed him into a lying position and moved over to be on top of him, holding herself up with her arms so that their bodies were only touching at the groin. He thrust his hips up pushing his erection hard up against her belly. She leaned into him savouring his hardness."Fuck me," he said panting, thrusting against her "please B'Elanna I can't stand it any more.""We'll see what you can stand," she growled, moving herself over him so that his penis slid effortlessly against her slippery wet vulva, riding over her hard clit with each stroke."Oh, oh God," he moaned straining to push himself against her."Take me inside you, I need to be inside you," he begged, looking hard at her "stop teasing me."Tom had had enough. With one swift motion he fliped them over, deciding he would just have to get his own back. He sat up next to her, leaning down to kiss her, tonguing her deeply. Pulling away slightly he bent over and kissed her belly swirling his tongue around her belly button and then pushing it quickly inside causing B'Elanna to giggle. He looked up at her through his lashes and saw desire flashing from her obsidian eyes. Moving his head up slightly he began to tongue the underside of her breast and then brought his mouth up over the swell until he had one nipple snugly ensconsed between his lips and began to suckle like a newborn.B'Elanna moaned and writhed at the feeling of Tom's mouth on her and pushed her hand into his hair holding him against her. After paying plenty of attention to both of her breasts he moved back down her body kissing and licking the entire journey down to her pubic triangle. Moving his hand over her body to cup her vulva, he rocked her with his hand. "Lets see how turned on you are," he said, feeling her wetness even on the long pubic hair at which he grasped. He skillfully parted her inner lips with two fingers, sliding his middle finger deep inside her, feeling her wetness."Oh, very nice," he breathed. He worked a second finger into her, moving it in and out with harder and faster thrusts until she moaned and strained against his hand. Suddenly he took his fingers out of her, eliciting a small sigh of disappointment, and began to work the area just a tiny bit above her clitoris with gentle, firm, rythmic caresses that made her scream in pleasure. Holding her lips open he worked his middle finger over her clitoris rythmically back and forth, rubbing it harder in time to her increasing  pelvic movements against his hand. With his other hand he thrust two then three fingers all the way up inside her, faster and faster until her body tensed and arched off the bed, ripping a scream of orgasm from her throat.Tom immediatley pulled himself up the length of B'Elanna's body in order to enter her while her orgasm went on in wave after wave of pleasure, which he now rode, taking his cues from her thrusting. After slowing  to let her come down from her intense pleasure, he began to thrust gently, increasing his rythm when he felt her respond. She opened further to his quick thrusts, raising her hips to meet his, burning with such desire she felt almost faint."Oh, God Tom,Tom," she moaned "It's so good."He leaned over her, kissing and biting her breasts sucking hard on one and then the other as he thrust high into her. He withdrew only to plunge all the way into her until she screamed with pleasure, rocking with him, tightening her vaginal muscles to grip him when he was deepest inside her, making him gasp and whisper "I love you."Their lovemaking was becoming frenzied as they both neared their climax. Tom pushed himself all the way into her, thrusting over and over, coming partly out only to come hard back into her, sighing and moaning more with each motion.She could feel his sweat mix with hers as he nuzzled his face against her neck, they smelled of sex. When they finally came, their moaning became an orgasmic cry that seemed to go on forever as they called each others names and held tightly to one another. Her tiny quick contractions spasmed against his ejaculating penis filling B'Elanna more than she ever thought  possible.When their shudders had subsided they lay tangled together for long minutes trying to bring their breathing back under control. Finally Tom lifted himself off of B'Elanna and lay along side her, keeping his arms protectively around her. He looked into her face and saw tears flowing freely from her eyes."B'Elanna whats wrong?," he asked kissing the tears from her cheeks, panic rising in his chest thinking that she might tell him it was all a big mistake.She turned her head toward him and traced his face lightly with her fingers."Oh Tom, I'm sorry I'm crying it's just that I've never had anybody make love to me like that before and I never wanted it to end." she smiled when she saw the look of relief in his eyes.Tom kissed her gently but passionately "Don't ever worry about it ending, I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life pleasuring you and making you happy. I know that it wont always be sunshine and lollipops, but I want to be with you forever and I'm willing to give it a try. That is if you'll have me?."B'Elanna smiled the most radient smile Tom had ever seen and threw her arms around his neck kissing his entire face." Of course I'll have you Tom Paris. I love you," she said, then grinning evilly "but first I think you still need some practice in how to keep a Klingon woman happy." Throwing him on his back and growling deep in her throat, B'Elanna rolled on top of him and their pleasures began again.                                             The End.