My Heart Will Go On by: Heidi Carver (Imzadi98@aol.com) May 1998 Disclamer: Paramount owns all the names... I am just using them to write the story. My Heart Will Go On She could not live without him and he without her. They had been together for a year, and they knew they were meant to be together forever. She had never thought that this relationship would work, but gave it a try. He knew it would work, but knew what she was thinking. They took it slow, some would say to slow. They wanted to take their time and really get to know each other. She loved him more every time they were together and he loved her more every day. They were meant to be together and everyone around them knew it. However something happened that changed everthing. What happened seperated them forever...so they thought. If one were to die the other would take it very hard and find it hard to go on. Somehow they would go on for the other one. ***Near, far, wherever you are, I believe that the heart does go on Once more, you open the door And you're here in my heart, And my heart will go on and on*** Lt. B'Elanna Torres Personal Log Stardate 52365.1 Tom and I went to the holodeck tonight for our one year anniversary, of our first date, with a romantic dinner. We were in Paris on the Eifell Tower looking at all the people walking through Paris at night. It was so beautiful. We had just finished eating when he did it. He pulled the ring out of the pocket of his pants and opened it and asked me to marry him. Of course I said yes. He slipped the ring on my finger and then did I realize how beautiful it really was. The stone is a blue color the same as his eyes. He must have used a lot of repilcator rations to get the ring. I love him more than anyone I have ever know. Since we meet his has become part of me and I a part of him. I don't know what I would do without him. Lt. Thomas Eugene Paris Personal Log Stardate 52365.1 If anyone asked me five years if I would ever get married, I would have said never in a million years. Was I ever wrong. From the first time I layed eyes on B'Elanna I knew we would be together for the rest of our lives. She is one of the few people I have ever loved and trusted.No one has ever loved me as much as she does. She didn't care about my past; we realized that the past didn't matter to us and that all we needed was each other and the future. We are meant to be together forever. I ask her to marry me tonight and she said yes! I knew she would and I don't know why I was scared to asked her. When she said yes my heart skipped a beat. I think her's did too. Everyday I love her more and more. Over the next few days the cre finds out that Tom and B'Elanna are going to get married. Everyone is happy for them and can't wait to see what kind of weddinig they will have. They want to get married as soon as possible. They started making plans right away. Captain Janeway would marry them, Harry would be Tom's best man and Seven would be B'Elanna's maid of honor. The whole crew was to be invited and that was all the crew could talk about for weeks. One week before the wedding was to take place, Tom was sent off to get some supplies from a planet they were about to get to. They were just to pick up supplies and meet Voyager one day later and everyone would be fine. However this never happened... Captain's Log Stardate 52365.2 Captian Kathryn Janeway Lt. Paris was sent two days ago to get supplies from a near by planet, a very simple procedure, however it was anything but normal. On his way back to the shuttle craft he were "greated" by some locals who didn't like strangers very much. Tom was attacked and brutally beaten. No one found him until today when we started looking for him. He didn't survived the incident. Telling the crew about this was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. First I had to tell B'Elanna that yet another man in her life has left her. That took alot out of me. She was upset and her temper really started to show. I didn't know what to do, so I took her and gave her a hug and let her cry on my shoulder for three hours. I told her I would be back. She said ok. Then it was on to tell the rest of the crew. They took it better than I was. I don't know it might have been becuase I was so close to him . After spending four hours in my ready room talking to Chakotay I asked where B'Elanna was to check up on her. I found her lying on Tom's bed. She was just lying there crying and crying. I went over to her and gave her a hug as I did before and just told her everyone would be alright. The next day there was a memorial service for Tom. "We are here today to say good-bye to a very close friend, Lt. Tom Paris. I would like to start this off by saying a little about each of him," said Janeway, "Tom was a good man who justed needed a second chance in life and I was the one who gave it to him. I felt like he was one of my closest friends, but he never knew how much I cared about him. I felt like he was mine to watch over and take care. I had to do that for his father. Tom was a good man who shouldn't have died so young," Janeway ended as she started to cry. After Kathryn sat down Chakotay went up and started to speak... "When I first meet Tom, I thought he was one of the worst people I had ever meet. He had just been kicked out of StarFleet and a needed a place to be. So somehow he found me and I didn't give him a chance and he ended up in prision. After that, the next time I meet him he saved my life and I still own him for that. I gave him another chance and he turned out to be a really nice person that I now can call a friend. I am going to miss him. As Chakotay sat down B'Elanna got the courage to go up.. B'Elanna started to talk and began to cry, but went on,"When I first meet Tom I thought he was a pig who was not worthing knowing. However he thought there could be a friendship between the two of us. I fought it for awhile, then I realized what a good person he was. Once I gave him a chance I got to know a really nice and sweet person. He loved me, eventhough he knew everything about me. Tom always said he loved me becuase of who I am. He loved both sides of me and I never forgot it. He was the one man in my life who really loved me for me. I loved him for that and I don't know what I am going to do without him. he was a part of me." she started to reall cry and Chakotay had to help her sit down. A few more people spoke and then everyone went back to what they had to do. B'Elanna went back to Tom's quarters to cry some more. Lt. B'Elanna Torres Personal Log Stardate 52365.5 He is gone. He said he would never leave me and he did. I miss him so much. I loved him more than anyone knew. He was part of me and I a part of him, we completed each other. I don't know how I can go on with out him. I am to upset to be angry. I hope I can live with out him, but I don't think I can. I know he would want me to go on. I feel like it is my responsibilty to go on for him and get home. I will do that for Tom. Three hours later B'Elanna and Janeway are in Tom's Quarters looking through his stuff. "B'Elanna I found something you might want," said Janeway to B'Elanna from Tom's Bedroom "What is it Captain?" asked B'Elanna "It looks like a computer chip with a message on it." said Janeway. " Can you please leave so I can look at it?" asked B'Elanna "Sure. I will be on the Bridge if you need me." said Janeway " Ok," said B'Elanna as Janeway left the room "Here goes nothing," said B'Elanna as she placed the chip into the computer. She then turned it on and there was Tom's beautiful face. "Hi there beautiful! If you are looking at this I have died. I am sorry for leaving you like this. The last thing I would ever do to you is leave because I promised I would never leave. I am sorry for that. The last time I updated this was the day I left on a simple mission, but for some reason I updated this thing. Well if you are listening to this now, then we were never married. I am sorry for that as well. I never meant to hurt you ever and you know that. So here is goes... I love you Bella and I always have. I know you felt the same about me. Whatever you do please go on with you life and live. Don't stay in my room every night, unless you plan to move in there which is fine by me. What I want you to do is go on with you life and have some fun. Don't dwell on the past or what might have happened. I will always love you and let your heart be free to fall in love, get married and have children. Remember beautiful, I love you. " and with that the message ended and Tom's face disapeared. "I love you too." were the only words she could say. ***Every night in my dreams I see you, I feel you, That is how I know you go on. Far across the distance and spaces between us You have come to show you go on.*** Every night when B'Elanna went to bed she had a dream about her and Tom. She had been having them since they found the bodies. One night it would be their wedding, another night the birth of a child and another then together old and gray. "We have a daughter, Bella. She looks just like you" said Tom "I love you Tom. I couldn't have done this without you. What should we call her?" asked B'Elanna All of a sudden B'Elanna woke up in a sweat. She had had another dream about Tom. ***Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime, And never let go till we're gone, Love was when I loved you, one true time I hold to. In my life we'll always go on.*** Lt. B'Elanna Torres Personal Log Stardate 52366.2 It has been one month since Tom died. I still think of him everyday. I moved into his quarters about two weeks ago. It was something I had to do. Every night I dream about him. One night I dream of what might have been while another night I dream of the past and the fun we had. I have started to go with my life, however I fear I might never fall in love again. He was the only man I could see myself getting married to and growing old with. Also lately I have not been feeling well. I am going to go to the Doctor tommorrow and see what is wrong. The next day... B'Elanna has just entered sickbay... "Lt. what brings you here?" asked the Doctor when he saw B'Elanna enter "I haven't been feeling well lately. I don't know what it could be," said B'Elanna. "Ok, then let me take a look," said the Doctor as he got a medical tricorder. He scans here and finds soemthing very interesting. "I see what the problem is," "What is wrong with me?" asked B'Elanna. "Well Lt., you are two months pregnant." "PREGNANT!?" "That is what I said" "Oh my god. Wow! I am going to be a mother. I just wish Tom was here to be part of this. Thank you Doctor." said B'Elanna as she exited sickbay before the Doctor coudl say anymore. B'Elanna headed to the Bridge to tell Janeway and Chakotay. When she walked onto the Bridge she saw something she thought she would never see again. "TOM!!" were the only words she could mutter. "Yes, my love it is me," said the person standing next to Janeway. "You're alive! You're alive!" she said as she ran toward him to give him a hug. "I am so sorry I scared you Bella." "How? We saw your beaten body," "I made it out alive and the aliens made a double of me to make you think I was dead." "Oh." *"Doctor to Torres, you left so fast I wandering if you wanted to talk more about the baby?"* "Oh my god I forgot. I will be down later" "What baby?" asked Tom as the rest of the Bridge crew looked B'Elanna. "Our baby. I just found out I am pregnant. I was coming here to tell everyone. I must have forgot when I saw you." "Well, lets get you sick bay, on the way we can talk about the wedding." said Tom as they headed for the turbolift. ***You're here, there's nothing I fear, And I know that my heart will go on. We'll stay here forever this way. You are safe in my heart, And my heart will go on and on*** Three weeks later Ever since Tom returned to voyager, he and B'Elanna have been planning their wedding. They wanted it to be perfect. Janeway helped B'Elanna with her dress and getting everything ready. Chakotay helped Tom with a tux and everything else that the woman were not doing. The night before the wedding the girls through B'Elanna a batchlerette party and the guys through Tom a batchler party. "Thank you all for this," said B'Elanna. "You deserve it. After everything you and Tom have been through," said Janeway. "Well, are we going to have fun or what?" said Bella. The woman were on holodeck 1. The men on the other hand were in holodeck 3 having their own party. Nothing dirty, justguys hanging around having fun. "I can't believe that tomorrow I am getting married," said Tom to all the guys. "Neither can I. When I meet you I thought you were the type that would never settle down or start a family and here you are getting married and you are going to have a child," said Chakotay. My Heart Will Go On from Titanic ***Every night in my dreams I see you, I feel you, That is how I know you go on. Far across the distance and spaces between us You have come to show you go on. Near, far, wherever you are, I believe that the heart does go on Once more, you open the door And you're here in my heart, And my heart will go on and on Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime, And never let go till we're gone, Love was when I loved you, one true time I hold to. In my life we'll always go on. Near, far, wherever you are, I believe that the heart does go on Once more, you open the door And you're here in my heart, And my heart will go on and on You're here, there's nothing I fear, And I know that my heart will go on. We'll stay here forever this way. You are safe in my heart, And my heart will go on and on***