Right Now

by Cam


Title: Right Now

Author: Cam

Author's Email: Camerada2006@yahoo.com

Pairing: Chloe/Lex

Rating: R

Summary: Chloe thinks about the present. Lex does the same.

A/N: This is my very first posted fic, and I know my writing needs lots of improvement, so I'm really looking forward to getting critical feedback. Thanks.


CHLOE

As I roll over to look at you, I am struck by how little space there actually is between us. I'm practically on top of you, but when I scoot back, your arm tightens around my waist. It's all right though, because now I'm in the perfect Lex-gazing position.

You sleep with your mouth open. Lips parted, you are the antithesis of everyday, grownup, all-powerful Lex Luthor. Lips parted, you look just the way you did last night when you simply closed your eyes and breathed my name.

And you shortened it, too. "Chlo," you murmured. You never call me "Chlo." It reminds me that, more than lovers, now, we're friends.

It didn't start out that way. I respected you, and you respected me, and that one night at that one party turned into frantic kisses, which led to a search for the nearest bedroom and before I knew it, Chloe Sullivan was losing her virginity right before her very eyes.

I didn't plan it that way. I had expected music and flowers and romance and - dare I say it? Clark. You weren't him. Hell, you weren't even the next best thing. You were something entirely different.

Lex, you didn't fumble and you didn't ask. You didn't press, nor did you hold back. With every kiss, I could feel you trying to clutch me as hard as I was clutching you. And when it was over, you kissed my forehead in the gentlest way imaginable, and slipped from the room.

And the next morning, I found you in your office, reading the Planet and sipping coffee. I didn't press, nor did I ask. I sat down and you looked up. You offered me a cup of coffee, and suddenly I was angry, so angry that you offered, but I accepted it anyway.

You served me yourself - lots of sugar, a little cream, just the way
I like it - and sat beside me. You tried to tell me that last night
had been "a mistake" and that you hoped we were still - but before
the sentence was out of your mouth, the coffee was on the floor and my lips were kissing your scar, and then your cheek, and then your chin and then . . .

I knew - scratch that - WE knew that things would never be quite the
same. After we made love on the sofa (it would be a sin to call something so expensive a "couch"), you lay on top of me, completely still, holding your breath. You told me I was beautiful and that you cared very much, however, we could still go back to being - but
I swallowed the "F" word before it even passed your lips. See, I have a violent opposition to "just being friends," ever since Clark took me up on it.

And after that, every Saturday and Sunday morning we would have breakfast together, and the initial awkward silences turned into comfortable ones and the comfortable silences turned to talking.

So now I know your dreams, Lex Luthor, and you know mine. I know all about your fascination with science and empire-building. You know how badly I want to write for the Planet, and how scared I am of having kids of my own.

Your mouth opens a little more as you shift slightly. This reminds me of when Clark walked into the Torch office; that night you came and said, "I'm here to bring you some coffee." Well, the latte was good, but wrapping my legs around you was better, and when you rested your head on my shoulder, leaning into me, I wanted to cry. I was sitting on my desk, skirt hiked up to there, legs wide, and you were whispering to me. Telling me how proud you were. Telling me you loved me - for the first time ever. And you told me that sometimes
you hoped that if you hugged me tight enough, close enough, you could sink into me and disappear. I didn't admit it to you, but I feel the same way. Sometimes.

But Clark. He came in and it looked SO very compromising. And it was, because in just a few moments, you had shared your soul with me. Clark's mouth dropped open, and he turned very red. You pulled away after squeezing me once, very hard. You started talking to Clark. Talking about how things sometimes happen, that no one plans them, but he was just staring at me looking horribly betrayed. I laughed. He was just so red and so self-righteous; I couldn't help it. You heard me, I guess, and gave up trying to explain. You said to him: "I love Chloe, Clark. You're going to have to accept that."

And he did. He accepted it, Lex, because it was you. Because you're his best friend and he loves you dearly.

I also love you dearly. I know I've never said it, even though you have, half-a-dozen times or so. I haven't been ready to say it. I honestly don't know why.

Now your eyes flicker open, looking up at me. Your lips curve upward in a slow, lazy smile, and your hand slides beneath my hair, pulling my face to yours. Just before our lips meet, I say: "I love you, Lex."

You just smile and say "Hmmm," and kiss me.

LEX

As your face approaches mine, you whisper, "I love you, Lex." I murmur and press my lips to yours, your mouth opens, and my tongue slips in, reacquainting itself with the warm space it knows so well.

"I love you, Lex." Chloe, sweet Chlo, you have not a clue how much those words mean to me. It's cost me a fortune every time I've said them to you, but I wouldn't stop, nay, couldn't stop myself. Now I have them back.

I know you didn't plan it to be like this. As you curl up next to me, all softness and curves, I wonder if you ever wished it were Clark holding you. If so, it's ok, because I know you don't now.

Chloe, the first time we made love, I couldn't hold back. I wanted to, knew I should, but I didn't. When you winced slightly in pain, I began to regret. When you shuddered in pleasure, I took it back. I'd always known you were pretty, but your beauty astounded me that night. There was a tenderness in your eyes that startled me. Suddenly, sharply, I realized what a sacrifice it must be for a young woman to take a man inside her. When it was over, I kissed your forehead and left quietly.

I didn't sleep that night. I ended up sitting in my office writing reports that could have waited another two weeks. When Enrique appeared with the paper and coffee, I was thinking about how to proceed with you. I came up with a plan of action. I even went so far as to type up a speech.

I was unprepared for your entrance. You had on jeans and an argyle sweater that reminded me of one that was hanging in the back of my closet. I offered you coffee and tried to take back all that I had given you. But when you kissed me, oh, Chloe, when you kissed me, I was horrified and delighted all at the same time. I no longer had control ever the situation, and when you ran your hands under my shirt, I was content to leave it all up to you.

Once again, I tried to give you an out. Tried to warn you away from this Luthor. You wouldn't listen. We had breakfast afterward. I watched as you read the Ledger. Whe you finished, you asked if we could trade. I stared stupidly at you until you coughed and pointed at the Planet. I was too embarrassed to blush, and you smiled at me.

As the days and weeks passed, I grew more and more used to you bursting into my office or my room or my bathroom, excited about this, pissed off about that.

There was that day when you ran into my office, tackled me, and proudly waved your published Letter to the Editor in the Daily Planet. While you were squealing, you failed to notice my gestures. My father, who was standing behind you, said your name: a question and a triumph simultaneously. You froze, eyes wide. Slowly you stood, squared your shoulders, and faced him. I followed suit, and began to explain. You cut me off, shaking hands with the bastard, kissed me swiftly, and said you'd call later. It seemed despite all of his eyebrow raising and head shaking, you couldn't be fazed.

My father was wrathful, and upbraided me for the better part of two hours. I took it all in stride, knowing that as soon as you called, it would disappear. And it did.

I kiss your eyelids and you sigh into my shoulder. I've never spent entire nights completely wrapped up with another person. After sex, Victoria would roll away from me. Or I from her. But now, if I shift, you follow. If you move, I pull you tighter. I love to lay my hands on your belly, soft and warm. It makes me wonder: will you ever get over your phobia of childbirth to bear my heir?

Then I remember that you're still in high school, and that marriage and family are still many, many years away - separated by college and career building. But it's all right. We don't have to think about that now.

Right now, we don't have to think about anything. Just sleep. And when tomorrow comes, breakfast.

End


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